i wanted to a second and talk about being a mom. sometimes i find myself still in shock that i have a baby. i know i've said it so many many times, it truely is such an amazing blessing. that this tiny angel was made with so much love and care and grew into the most beautiful and innocent baby. it still blows my mind on how fast your children grow.

today i felt like i was at all day and i didn't get to spend much time with lia. well, just getting home and taking her out of her carseat while she was sleeping; i just held her and rocked her in the nursery and just the sound of her breathing, melted my heart. that might sound lame but i don't care.
i can't tell you how much i love all the things lia does....
the sound of her voice, the way she smiles, her little giggle, the way she sleeps with her bum in the air, or the way she rubs her eyes when she gets woken up. the funny things she does like rolling round in her fav blanket to fall asleep, how she shakes when she gets excited and can hardly contain herself, her blowing on her hand, practicing for her big day (1st birthday), or that little finger that points to everything and says "that!!!".
i could just eat her up all day long. especially that little finger... ugh i just can't handle it.

i could go on FOR LONGER THAN FOREVER on what i love about her. but being a mom.... it's hard. of course you anticipate it to be hard but for me, it's really hard. i'm a very patient person and i'll admit it, sometimes i lose my patience, i get frustrated, who doesn't? you're lying to yourself and everyone around you, if say you don't. i'm not going to lie, sometimes i can go over the edge, when the crying doesn't stop because of teething or whatever reason, i do feel helpless and need a second to breath and calm down. i'm ok with admitting that to everyone because if the mom's that read this, haven't felt this way... they will at some point, i know that for sure!! i know i am a great mom. i would do anything for my family and i do everything i can for it. i believe i am everything i need to be the best mom. (that isn't me flattering myself)

i know that at some point, lia won't be teething any more, or waking up hungry in the middle of the night, and she'll probably throw even bigger tantrums later on... but no matter how old she gets or any of my other future children get, there will always be crazy obstacles and really hard times and probably times when i'd rather pull out every hair on my head than deal with whatever problem (teenage years). but i couldn't imagine what life would be like if i didn't have that gorgeous face to wake up to every single morning. having such hard times are just part of the job.

the reason i'm going on and on about this is, with this being the week of thanksgiving, the number one thing i am greatful for is to be a mom. last year i had no idea what i was in for while being pregnant with lia, but i can honestly say... i wouldn't change anything about lia or what it's like to be a mom. Thank you to robbie for creating this beautiful blessing in my life and making sure that his girls are taken care of everyday. thank you to lia for giving me the opportunity and pleasure of being her mommy. and thank you to all of our family and friends for all of the support, assistance and love that you give us.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!