relief

Today was my very last day of training.

My two week training has come to and end and I get to be all alone on Monday at my very own desk with a view of the mountains.

Not too shabby, eh?

 

Man, it really just feels great to be working again.

As much as I LOVE being home with Lia and Hudson all day,

It's nice to go back to work.

I just go crazy being cooped up in the house all day.

So it is a relief.

 

 

Hudson is 11 weeks old now. He is getting huge. I didn't realize how fast puppies grow.

His potty training is going okay.

He still has accidents a lot, but he has been trying really hard to stand by the door when he wants to go outside.

I think he is really adjusting to us.

We just love having him here. He's our little protector. {heehee}

 

 

Lia is as cute as ever. It is so bittersweet how fast she is growing up.

Tonight she was eating dinner in her big girl panties on the stool with NO BOOSTER {she refuses} and just eating her noodles with her fork. no messes. just her being the biggest girl.

 

Lia's voice is what kills me the most.

I wish she would sing to me all day every day.

I can't believe her confidence.

Every day I just feel more and more blessed that I was chosen to be her mother.

Being a mom is the hardest thing I have ever done or ever thought it would be.

I've said that a million times and that probably won't change anytime soon.

But none of that matters.

I am just bursting with pride for her.

I've never been so proud.

She is truly one of a kind.

and she is my everything.

 

 

Now that I've been working 40+ hours a week, I just savor every second I get to spend with her.

I've never been so busy and exhausted in my life.

nonetheless, she deserves a mother that no matter what kind of day I have or how tired I may be,

I will ALWAYS be there for her.

To hug her, kiss her, spin with her, dress up with her, have make up parties with her, play tea with her, and laugh with her.

I think that is what she deserves.

Sometimes I feel guilty that her parents work so much.

Scared she might feel that we aren't around enough.

I think we just do what we have to, to make sure that she has the most amazing life possible and now we can do more than provide for her, we can secure our future and that's huge for us being so young.

 

For Lia to be able to be a kid and enjoy her childhood because it never seems to last that long these days.

For her to not have to watch her parents struggling or fighting all the time about money or loose ends like that.

Things happen, but you do what you can to provide.

I will do everything it takes to make sure she stays the happiest, sassiest, spiciest, funniest, girliest little montster around.

 

 

The love will never stop! Never.